As we know, There are known knowns. There are things we know we know. We also know There are known unknowns. That is to say We know there are some things We do not know. But there are also unknown unknowns, The ones we don't know We don't know. ~D. Rumsfeld

Sunday, April 4, 2010

bye-da'way

i think this 'diary' has done its job and i am now in a stage of moving on...

that's why i won't be writing here anymore.

also i will break contact with all of you here who have been a great support to me all through these three very difficult years of my life. it's not that i don't care about you anymore. it's more that life moves on and if one doesn't take the decision to do so one never will (jump through that new window that has opened after a door has closed).

all of you will know what I mean.

i will leave this final post on this blog to all of you who have helped me, supported me, lend me their shoulder to cry on and made me feel that i'm not as useless and undeserving as i thought i was during the last three years.


a new period has presented itself to me and i'm gonna face it with much more strength and confidence, mostly due to all of your support, than i ever thought possible.

Thank you ALL of my friends. You will never be forgotten by me.

BUT =====>> this is 'it'.

A period of my life has finished and I gotta face it. Hopefully you will carry my memory without grudge. My very best wishes to all of you are here. Please, please accept them....

I really love you all... and you all will be remembered by me with love... we were like ships passing through the night and warming each other. We all moved on. And, I wish all of you ONLY the best. May life treat you well,

yours truly,
Riet

Saturday, April 3, 2010

After having spent an intensely busy morning running to obtain flannel baby undershirts (though there's a heat-wave in Israel at this moment and the 'summer collection' doesn't include flannel baby clothes, strangely enough) and zinc cream I remembered helped like a miracle when the mother of my granddaughter was a tiny newborn baby herself and suffering from shining red buttocks.. - and bringing it to their home and then (after not being able to part from my granddaughter) running back to my own home to meet Hana whom was going to spend the weekend with me on Friday...... (long sentence, hey? :D )

..... I finally got it all done. I happily let Hana prepare dinner for us (after having been to the supermarket with her first and bought all she needed in order to prepare this dinner). Klaas was so exhausted from all this running around that he didn't even feel like going out on his usual evening walk later on. And, so he didn't. Hehehe...

It seems I am tiring him out completely anyway. It happened again today. Hana, Klaas and me did the 'park route' to the Nemaal and ... because Hana doesn't travel on Shabbat ... the whole way back again. This left both Hana and Klaas stumbling way back behind me (I am used to walking long distances and actually thoroughly enjoy it) and complaining about exhaustion. Hahahahhaa.... I could have easily done the whole thing over again from starting point - but Khalas :D

Photos of this extremely wonderful weekend are below:


Grandma on a swing:
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Hana on a swing:
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A leaf that looks like pure lace:
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"Reflections" - a thing both Hana and me noticed when turning the corner at the end of the boardwalk at the Nemaal:
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The reflection of the sea in the window of what was once a weddinghall right opposite the sea. The windows of this hall made the sea appear as if on 'our laps'. Xtremely 'real'.

A heron or egret from rather far away - but with the dimples in the water it stood in formed such an extra-ordinary relaxing and calming sight:
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A flower so huge it seemed it was constructed of many tiny flowers having formed a 'union' and a sort of roof organisation:
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Hana didn't wanna go up the Reading mezah (recently opened to the public at large) so I went up there by myself and she sat waiting for me, together with Klaas...
The feeling of being at the end of the world, all alone with nothing but pure nature (the sea) around you is indescribably overwhelming to me that I couldn't let this chance go by and left both my friend and my dog for over more than half an hour in order to take it all in:
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There also was a Shag. There was nothing, you see nothing, but... water and skies (and from far away the coastline with its ugly buildings) and then all of a sudden a Shag's head dives up from the water...
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OK. And that's it. Both Klaas and Hana are in deep sleep now when I am writing these words... Hahahhahaha... I suppose it's a matter of habit because honestly I could do the walk over again without hesitating a moment ;-)