It was a sister in law who told me about the serious health situation a brother in law (not her husband, but another brother in law) was suffering from.. His days are counted :-( I wrote about him in this diary before. He was the one who let me feel I am not alone here and I am his family even though the one who made us family stepped out of the family "thing". Although he didn't help me practically very much his support mentally was invaluable.... He was also the one we, the ex and me, was offering to live in his apartment when I just came to Israel so, I have very, very fond memories of him.
I am SO sad. I am crying and crying and I wish there was someone who could share this pain with me, but.... the one I separated from I heard wished his brother to be in hell.... How could I have been so wrong when I was young when falling in love with him? Was I that blind??
I have a million photos I took today which I will play underneath but the first thing I would like associated with this day is the clip of a song that mellows out my heart and makes me feel not ashamed of my pain, Didou Nana:
about being young, about being mindless. about falling prey to the wolves amongst us and about the ones I dragged with me in my feelings and hold dear to me forever, when traveling the road of life ....
for the captions one can have a look at my flickr account - my head isn't into it right now. there were so many impressions, they're all at my flickr account:
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